Kids

They're doing well considering all of the changes lately. Last night over dinner with some friends they were recounting our time in Russia remembering Gina bopping the balloons and playing swords with Zack. They remembered going to McDonalds and hating the food. They also recalled being very shy and even hiding when they knew we were coming to visit.

This morning they woke up and asked me to sing the morning song, "Get out of bed you sleepy head and say good morning to the world." Tough request, but I managed to get it out for them.

It is like every fiber of life still has the "past" in it, and I'm not sure how to shelve how I feel even though I was hurt deeply. I am still not able to flip a proverbial switch no matter how angry I become. Even making a list of all the "wrongs" or "offenses" does no good because I still make excuses and give the benefit of the doubt.

As time passes, I hope things can soften a bit. For now, I read, love on the kiddos, and try to surround myself with people who speak the truth even when it is hard to hear.